He Is All I Need…


In the Name of God, the Subtle, the Loving

I have heard the song so many times at work, but paid very little attention to it. It sounded nice, and so I checked it out more closely. Before I purchase a song, I will look up the lyrics, because a song is more than good music: it is also about the lyrics.

This song touched me so very deeply; it hit such a raw nerve, and I have been enveloped by it ever since. The song is “She is Love” by Parachute. Of course, I downloaded it, and I have lost count of the number of times I have listened to it. If there was ever a song that has been sung about me: this is one of them.

The song begins:

I’ve been beaten down, I’ve been kicked around,
But she takes it all for me.
And I lost my faith, in my darkest days,
But she makes me want to believe.

The way his voice rings with the surrounding music is so soothing, and the tone of the song is almost melancholy, although its spirit is actually hopeful. Indeed, the song seems to be about the power of love, and how it has helped and healed the singer. Yet, as I listen to the song again, and again, and again, I cannot help but think of the Precious Beloved. And all of the “she”s become “He”s in my mind and on my lips.

Now – let me interject here – that I do have some sympathy for the argument that God does not have a gender; that He is beyond male and female. Yet, I will not abandon the Prophetic and Scriptural – both Biblical and Qur’anic – tradition to call upon the Lord with a male pronoun.

And so, for me, the song continues:

They call Him love, love, love, love, love.
They call Him love, love, love, love, love.
He is love, and He is all I need.

I have been “beaten down” and “kicked around.” I have endured so much ridicule and torment for my trying to stay on His path. For so much of my life, I have felt like an outsider because I refuse to do what others do because He has told me so. But, “He takes it all for me.”

And I become tearful when I hear those words. Because the Precious Lord was always there for me. And I am so appreciative for His love for me. And there was a time in my life when I did lose my faith; when my faith in Islam wavered and faltered; when the thought of leaving the faith of Abraham and his son Muhammad crossed my mind. But, “He makes me want to believe.”

He saved me from this fate; He kept me on His way, even though I deviated from it. He smiled on me even though I frowned toward Him. When “I had my ways, they were all in vain” He “waited patiently.” When “it was all the same, all my pride and shame,” He “put me on my feet.” What an ugly servant I was; What a Beautiful God He is.

He is love, and He is all I need.

But, I really become emotional when this part of the song come on:

And when that world slows down, dear.
And when those stars burn out, here.
Oh she’ll be there, yes she’ll be there,

That has happened to me: the day my beautiful daughter passed away after a long, hard-fought battle with lymphoma. On that day, the world slowed down. On that day, the stars burned out. Whenever I hear that part of the song, almost every time, tears stream down my face. In fact, I have openly sobbed, telling my daughter how much I miss her; telling my Lord how much pain I still feel.

And I am still in so much pain. Yes, I have learned to laugh again; yes, I have seen to it to hit the golf course (and the many trees contained within) again; yes, I have tried to be “normal” again. But, I am not normal again, and I doubt I will ever be. I am still in so much pain. I still feel so much hurt. I still miss my beautiful baby so much.

But, just as “she” was there for the singer in the song, He was there for me when the world slowed down and the stars burned out. He was there. He opened His arms to me. He comforted me like no other. He enveloped me with His soothing mercy, and I would never have survived without Him. He showed me His love, and I am forever grateful for it.

He is love, and He is all I need.

And that is the power of art: how it can inspire, soothe, and touch people in very special ways. And I try every time to see God in everything I touch, and see, and hear. That way, it keeps me in touch with Him; it keeps me connected to Him; it keeps me in love with Him.

Because truly, He is love, and truly, He is all I need.

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3 thoughts on “He Is All I Need…

  1. Being relatively new to your blog, I am surprised and deeply saddened to learn of the loss of your daughter. The good cheer and optimism that runs through your current writings provided no hint to me of such a devastating and deep loss that is now so apparent as I read your earlier post. My heartfelt condolences to your family. My appreciation of your willingness to share your pain, inspiration and wisdom is profound. Salaam.

  2. I am sorry for your loss and you chose the best healer- God. He chooses how long our journey here is, whether it be long or short. I also connected to Allah each time I had trials in my life and with the loss of my father whom I was very close to. Now I know he is with me in spirit.

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